I'LL BE OKAY

Cam hebat je tajuk entry kali ni kan.. Entry ni kira cam sambungan kisah hari khamis ler..


On Friday , masa aku g skool, ada le insan2 yg prihatin dtg jumpa aku n tanya aku okay ker. well... aku okay jer. Aku cian kat that guy sebab kawan2 aku cam blame dia plak. Actually both of us ada salah masing2. Dan kawan2 aku sepatutnya tak take sides pun. Buat cam biasa je sebab aku pun akan wat cam biasa gak lepas ni.

On Friday, that guy tak pandang pun muka aku n tak senyum langsung pada aku, waktu kami bertembung. Bagus gak camtu sebab dia bagi ruang untuk aku bertenang. Tapi at the same time, rasa cam sedih pun ada. But apa pun life goes on kan. 

Yg tak bestnya kan , dah 2 malam i dreamt of that guy. Aku pun tak leh nak recall, mimpi tentang apa. But when i woke i just knew that i dreamt of him. Susah gak kan ... 

" It takes a lifetime to forget someone" 

Aku rasa memang betul pun. Sebab aku rasa amat payah untuk aku buang semua perasaan yang ada dalam hati aku ni. 

Walau apa pun, aku dah berjanji pada diri sendiri untuk melupakan perasaan aku ni. Setiap pagi sewaktu bangun tido, aku akan cakap pada diri sendiri, I don't need him in my life to be happy" and before going to bed aku akan cakap camtu sekali lagi. Hopefully it will work.

Frankly speaking, I miss him so much. But I'm trying my best to ignore this feeling. I'm making myself busy with things. Maybe reading and some studying can help me get over him. PTK is just around the corner, so i need to study. 

Walaupun aku masih sedih lagi, tapi aku rasa ini adalah satu pengalaman yg akan dapat mematangkan aku. Harap2 nya aku akan jadi seorang yang lebih tabah dan kuat selepas ini. 

Doakan aku ek. 

Someday I'll be okay....



Posted in: on Saturday, February 28, 2009 at at 7:53:00 PM  

5 fren(s) of disturbia:

  1. Anonymous On March 1, 2009 at 1:19 AM Wrote

    hi disturbia,

    the pics in this entry and the one before look so very familiar!! hehehe...

    u got it from my blog, tentayu, huh?? can see that u like them, too! but it really took me so much time and effort to surf the net to get such nice pics like those! and the wordings too, they came from my heart!

    actually dear, these pics that i used are very personal to me... and they were specially meant to be in my blog only. i'd really appreciate it if you would ask me first before u use them... they're very, very personal, indeed... i hope u understand yer..

    well, i hope u'll be okay.. and that's a doa from me, taw.

    goodluck!

     
  2. disturbia On March 1, 2009 at 12:33 PM Wrote

    dear teesh

    so sorry about the pics yer....
    i really like those pics and i thought that u don;t mind that i borrowed them....

    i won;t do it again..

    sorry again ya

     
  3. Anonymous On March 1, 2009 at 7:06 PM Wrote

    hi dear,

    thanks for understanding. indeed those pics are very personal to me, and it took me so much effort to find the ones that really paints a thousand words to express my heart and feelings in my entries... very personally meant for someone so special! im glad u do understand...

    dear,

    be strong yer! just like the saying goes... "if u love someone let him go. if he comes back to you, he is yours forever, but if he doesn't, the he is not yours to begin with!"

    i'm sure you'll find someone who'll really love and care for u with all his heart! perhaps he's already there somewhere waiting to find you! i wish you all happiness...

    take care...

     
  4. hayad On March 1, 2009 at 8:49 PM Wrote

    disturbia,

    jgn pk dah la. mcm teesh tu ckp, let him go. kalo dia dtg semula, maknanya mmg jodoh awak.

    ala, lg pun tak besh la berchenta satu sek, hehehe.

     
  5. disturbia On March 2, 2009 at 10:17 AM Wrote

    dear teesh and dayah,

    memang dah malas nak fikir pun skarang. so far memang perasaan dah okay skit. dah boleh tegur n tengok muka dia. hopefully akan berterusan camtu ler....

     

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